Let's Get it Started

This is the bag that the clinic gave me to collect hub’s… sample. I had a good laugh it when I got home and told hub about how I felt like I had a big “I’m infertile” spotlight on me- and he said “Well, if you’re the one collecting that sample, that’s your problem”. Maybe you had to be there, but it was a good laugh. You should have seen me walking out of the clinic with it, head high and looking nonchalant while my head is screaming “I can’t believe this is my life”. Because I can’t- believe this is my life that is. I’ve been pregnant- more than once- I know I can carry a child- a bit too well- and yet I have paperwork The says “Female Infertility NOS”

And in other news, Hub has a friend at work who I have only met once. He is a really, really nice man by all accounts and an excellent father. (some stuff I deleted relating to non-traditional sperm donation) He mentioned the two spouses of his co-workers- me and another woman should be invited to his new-son's baby shower. He mentioned to hub that there was no one else he would invite He mentioned wanting hub and I to hang out with them (he and his child’s mom). I would love to go- and I will go- but I feel like it might be impossibly hard.

Let's get it started (ha), let's get it started in here.
Yeah.
Lose control, of body and soul.
Don't move too fast, people, just take it slow.
Don't get ahead, just jump into it.
Black Eyed Peas, Let's Get it Started


P.S. 3DPO and don't feel hopeless yet! Yay!