It is time I think to transition to days of pregnancy rather than days past transfer. IF my beta is good today (waiting on results now) I think this blog will become, once again, a pregnancy one.
Today was emotional.
I've been following the infertility yellowbrick road for a very long time now. Those of you who have been there know what I mean. The way is gleamingly clear, glinting in the sun. Cycle Day 1- call the clinic, CD 2 blood draws, start meds CD3-mid cycle take meds, do u/s eat well, stress less, mid-cycle- do intervention- retrieval, IUI, sex. WAAAAIIIIITT then, usually, get disappointed and start again. Skip, Skip, Skip down the path. We're off to see the Wizard, the wonderful wizard of IF.
Suddenly (not so suddenly actually 18 months) I'm (may be) at the end of the yellow-brick road. Stepping off onto a new path. Different milestones, still a lot of waiting and a lot of appointments. 2 more things to go at the RE as of this morning- 2nd beta and viability u/s on Feb 8th (2 days after my dad's birthday! 2 days apart is quite a theme of this pregnancy). I went into my beta this morning and saw the woman I usually see. We talked about the weather (frigid) and my bad veins (always). She said "oh it's hiding from me!" and I said something to the effect that they've been poked for years and I'm hoping this is the last time. She confirmed I said years and I told her we've been working on family building for 5 years and have just one at home. She asked God to bless me, wished me luck and hoped that this was my last blood work visit.
If this pregnancy works out, I'm almost certainly done. (Hub is already lobbying to try "one more, one more time" but I don't want to end on a sour note, if possible) This might have been my last fertility blood draw.
Good bye Yellowbrick road?
Oh I've finally decided my future lies
Beyond the yellow brick road
Elton John, Goodbye Yellowbrick Road
Wonderful! So wonderful! With veins full of scar tissue from so many blood draws I totally understand. May this be the end of this journey and the beginning of another one much more amazing and full of happiness :)
ReplyDeleteMy veins are the same, always hiding. They have been through enough! Yay to leaving the yellow brick road. Hope you get an awesome beta today!!!!
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