Clocks

I can't stand this wait!

I feel like I am spinning out of control. I have two important projects due; one today, one tomorrow. The one due tomorrow is more important, but was just sprung on me. I usually have no problem prioritizing, dealing with issues and getting things done. But today I can't do anything. An Example? Here I am, writing a blog post.

After my "am I pregnant" blog post yesterday, I tested when I got home. This was not just because of the may be result, but because there was no sign of spotting, my boobs felt so sore and huge, and because I was due to go on  a 3 mile run.

This happened:

 

The one with no green ink is from yesterday afternoon and the one with the ink is from 2 days before. 

So, yesterday, I think I was pregnant.. 

As for today, I took another test this morning, and it was lighter. That made sense because I got up in the night to pee (which never, ever happens) so it was less concentrated that usual. I did my best to hold it all morning and after about 4.5 hours did another test at work... still lighter than the one yesterday afternoon?

What does this mean? Did I drink too many liquids and it's diluted? Am I remembering the line being darker than it really was (the picture really doesn't do it justice)? Am I not actually pregnant? I should add, I am officially late (for spotting definitely, for AF, usually)

Confusion never stops  

Closing walls and ticking clocks  

Gonna come back and take you home  

I could not stop that you now know singing

Coldplay, Clocks