Ultimate Cycle Recap: Storm Warning

I'm not pregnant. We are moving on to IVF. 

That out of the way...

On Thursday of last week, the last time I posted, I thought the test I took in the morning was negative.  came home from work and began packing for a short canoeing/camping/kayaking trip  with friends and without baby. I went to pack a pregnancy test and saw the one I took that morning, faintly positive, much to my surprise. 

I gave it a good try- not getting excited, not telling hub, not getting my hopes up- but failed spectacularly. I called hub, cried and swore off beer for my trip. 

I was overjoyed. 

We tried to be cautious. We reminded each other that this was very faint, very early. I took a test in the afternoon, again, faintly positive.

The next morning I took 2 more tests FRER and my standard internet cheap tests. Peed and then went and laid down. Hub checked them- negative he said. I looked and could see a faint line- slightly darker than the day before on the cheap test. Nothing on FRER. I was concerned, and knew that this wasn’t going to happen this cycle, but I put on a happy face.

The next morning- 11DPO now- I took a test in a porta-potty beside a beautiful river way up in the woods.

Starkly negative.

No question about it. Negative.

So there lies the Ultimate Cycle.

Chemical pregnancy.

The universe is an asshole.  

Hub and I 

I'm gonna wish I had a storm warnin'

I'm gonna wish I had a sign
I'm gonna wish I had a little heads up
A little leeway, a little more time
Hunter Hayes, Storm Warning