Well here we are. The Day After Christmas.
Back in Blue Sunday's time and again, at the end of pregnancy.
The days of living memories: days of making memories.
10 days where the past and the present will be in particularly sharp focus.
2 years ago, right about now, I was just starting on this road. I had gotten off the phone with the doctor and gotten the awful 1:5 odds in the mid afternoon.
All day today, I just keep poking Take Two, waiting for him or her to poke back. Take Two is well behaved and always does poke back.
2 years ago tomorrow was my last scan (and the amnio).
All day tomorrow is final baby prep- cleaning the house, buying a few last minute things.
2 years ago New Year's Eve was my first night of drinking since finding out I was pregnant. The diagnosis was confirmed and the termination set. I was closing the book on acting, feeling and truly being pregnant.
This NYE I will have closed or be closing the book on the last year without holding a child of my own.
2 years ago, 1/4/12 was my termination date.
1/4/14 is my due date.
Wheel indeed.
See it all the time
Where someone's last goodbye
Blends in with someone's sigh
Cause someone's coming home
In hand a single rose
And that's the way this wheel keeps working now
That's the way this wheel keeps working now
John Mayer, Wheel
(I know I already used this one, but I just keep coming around to the same theme)
Isn't it crazy, those "coincidences"?
ReplyDeleteWhoa, those dates would screw with my head. Not that I don't have my own. The first day my oldest was home from the NICU was the same date as the last day we had at home with Noah before going in for our induction. Hope that you can get through these next few weeks.
ReplyDeleteThose dates are indeed a 'crazy coincidnce.' However, I don't believe in coincidences. Perhaps this is Blue Sunday's way of letting you know s/he is still here, and watching over you and Take Two? ♥
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