Here we are. The very last time I will be 18 weeks and 6 days
pregnant. Also the last day I will ever have been pregnant 4 times. From here
on out, I'll only have been there 3 times.
With kins, I rehashed the first time I was 18+6 this
time, I can just refer you there. With MG I was prepping for vacation and a big
work meeting and didn’t want to dwell. This time, everything is causing a
little nostalgia. This is it, there will almost certainly be no additional
babies for me. I was leaving the door open after MG, and happily someone walked
through it! But I don’t think we will try for a fourth living child, in fact,
we’ll be preventing. It’s certainly bittersweet.
We had a great ultrasound yesterday and we truly believe we are on
the path to a healthy child. Anything can happen in pregnancy, of course, but
all test results have come in normal, all ultrasounds have looked good. We had
the 18 week scan yesterday and baby Liberty is looking healthy and whole. Liberty
was bopping around in there. I was having Braxton-hicks contractions which we
could see but I couldn’t feel at all. Lib looks like his/her siblings!
I’ll
never be at marker in pregnancy 4 times again, and yesterday was the last time
I will be in the U/S room where we saw Blue Sunday for the first and last times.
We will probably never see the ultrasound tech again either (though I promised
to send her a picture of Lib with his/her siblings and one of his/her feet- we
spent some time yesterday talking about how both kids have hub’s (gross) feet. (Kinsy
will be fine, but poor MG, pedicures are going to be necessary. LOL. I digress)
We’re transitioning care to the midwife with our next appointment. I have been
in the crazy hybrid of care: my OB/GYN is my primary, but she doesn’t deliver anymore
(she’s really seeing me as a favor since she was with me for Blue Sunday and
understands my fear of Next Tuesday with a surprise pregnancy). MFM for
ultrasounds, and testing. He, the MFM, said if I were his patient I would have
an ultrasound every appointment and he would see me every 3 weeks until 3rd
tri and then every 2! SO MANY APPOINTMENTS. I like the midwife model of care,
though and I know I feel comfortable with her. I am considering a more natural
childbirth this go-round, so midwife probably works better for me. Though I am
sad at giving up more ultrasounds. We might not see Lib again until he/she is
on the outside!!! We had one ultrasound post anatomy scan with kinsy for growth
at 30 ish weeks because I was measuring off and one for MG because she was
naughty and breech. Both kids we had due-date ish ultrasounds to check fluids,
but if I look good (measuring well) and go a little early
(PLLLLLLLLEEEEAASSSSSEEEEE)- that could be it! I did- finally get the perfect
U/S shot (only took 4 pregnancies!):
It is sad and exciting, as I begin to close the pregnancy chapter
of my life. Sad: as I leave Blue Sunday behind in one more way. In a few hours
I can say good-bye forever to 18 weeks 6 days of pregnancy and with it one of
the major milestones I measure pregnancy by. Exciting: as I step closer to
meeting my Liberty, completing my family and starting the pure parenting part
of my life.
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