Life is chaos right now. I’m drowning. I will never complain
about having two kids. They are amazing and I could not be more grateful for
them. But I am so, so tired. Hub has three classes this semester mon-wed nights.
There are usually hockey games Friday and/or Saturday night. Then factor in a
social visit a week and shopping- well we’re already out of time and we haven’t
cleaned, slept or factored in appointments and self care. So my eyebrows are
bushy, my laundry isn’t done and the house is cluttered.
I feel emotionally overwhelmed, but I think it is more
related to some baby blues/ previously existing anxiety than anything serious. I have always been an anxious person, but
I have found myself having some irrational fears. I am mostly ok, and am
waiting it out a few more weeks. I really don’t want to go on medication and
hurt milk supply/ waning fertility. We may try one more, one more time. We may
just not prevent and see what happens.
My kids love each other, the struggle for Baby G was so, so
worth it.
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