In pieces on the ground
Sigh. That is hands down my favorite line in all of songwriting.
Sweet dreams and flying machines/ in pieces on the ground
James Taylor, Fire and Rain. That's how I feel today, on what should have been the mid way point in my pregnancy. That song is going to be on loop for the coming weeks and months. It is simply perfect for how I am feeling-- my world has crashed down around me.
I feel better than I did yesterday, physically. I started bleeding again, it was never much to begin with, but it was nearly non-existent until today, now bleeding. I was hoping I was nearing the end so that my body can get ready for cycle 1 hopefully in 3 weeks. Looking unlikely now.
While writing a blog is a big relief for me, it is hard to read the blogs of others. I can't find very many who have had a chromosomal loss, most of the baby loss blogs are early miscarriages and when the women reach the second trimester in later pregnancies there is a palpable sense of relief. I won't get that until after 20 weeks IF I ever get pregnant again. Sigh.
If you're out there reading this, feel free to comment. I wonder who my audience is, I see in stats people are reading it but I have no idea who you are!